Spring is here again and even though it is still cold and blustery at times we know that it is here. My soul is feeling the surge again and I am taking aim at getting my deck and garden in shape for the days of sunshine that will follow. It has taken 18 months, one book, and a lot of soul searching to get me to where I am today. I wasn't sure that I would make it but I did. Just as my Cherry Tree and perennial planting have survived the year to bloom again so have I.
The most magical thing about this last bit of time is that is has been timeless. I don't feel that time has really passed but it has. I don't feel the desperate need to capture time anymore because I think that it has captured me. I don't have the insatiable appetite that I used to when it comes to adventure. But after living for as long as I have, I have found that life every day is the adventure, an ancient and eternal one. We are merely notes in the grand scheme, chapters in a complex novel or, if I may, players on a most important stage.
A friend once told me that in order to experience life one needs to wallow in it, to get dirty and to feel it in every way, much like tilling the soil in order to bring forth new growth. To hold back only means that we are delaying the outcome and to run through it too fast means to not savour its sensations completely. The pain and dismay that I have felt this last year has only made me hungry for more of the same, a sweet and a sour cup that must be drunk together. The sweet but volatile pain that penetrates our souls only does so when we truly feel the magnitude of what we are experiencing and embrace it. To feel less would mean that we are not experiencing our life in total. After all can a bird feel the sensation of flight without flying or can a flower feel the sunshine without opening its petals?
Mine has been a wonderful adventure that I look forward to continuing, for a while at least, and in the exploration finding even more fantastic feelings to add to my already full repertoire. What else is there to life if not just the act of living it?
So if I might, I would like to ask you my friends to talk to me about your hopes and dreams, your disappointments and expectations. I would like to get to know you all a little better so that I can better understand myself and in doing so help us all to feel better about our individual life expectations.
May your spring be eternal and may all the other seasons only serve to season your life with even more joy!
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