Another Anniversary

Just a thought, but what if that thing that you have been looking for your whole life materialized in front of you right now, today, this very moment. What would you do with it?

This summer, this July, this year to date came upon me unexpectedly and most definitely overwhelmed me. Another anniversary in time. Perhaps the thing that I had desired the most, the other half of me. That thing which had given such joy and purpose to my life but which had departed last year wasn't really gone after all. Perhaps that energy which had been part of my life still existed inside me and is still nourshing me.

Our minds, our sensibilities, really only exist because we choose for them to be here. Should we wish it our world could turn upside down or inside out. Daunting as it might seem there is another side to our universe, our daily muse, and that other side is perhaps the thing that we fear the most. Anything uncontrolled brings with it the possibility of the improbable and therefore the art of the impossible can be and is within our control should we choose to make it so.

I have been a student of life ever since I can remember and while I listened to myself as a young boy I heard other voices in my adolescence. Although I gave myself to others thoughts as a young adult I managed to regain my inner voice in later experiences. Throughout my passage in time one thing remains constant and that is the ever changing lense with which I view life. Sometimes painful, sometimes joyous, but always illuminating and therefore most essential. Our lives and loves, our experiences and journeys are merely a manifestation of our inner essence realized.

Maybe that is why the older I become the younger I feel and the less sustanance I require the more I desire it? Could it be that just as time itself there is a "black hole" in our very essence that requires nothing more than for us to just allow it to be. If we could merely sit for a moment and listen to the sounds of silence, the universal "Omm", than maybe we might understand ourselves a little better. We might then discover our purpose, dispose of our demons and learn to live as the free souls we were indeed intended to be.

I think that I have finally identified my demons and found that they are in fact really only the otherside of me ...